Buck: I mean, he's still scared out of his mind. He's not the only one.
Eddie: (crying) I'm sorry. I didn't mean to scare him. Just kind of... lost it.
Buck: Why?
Eddie: I was supposed to...reach out to some of the people I served with. Part of my therapy.
Buck: Okay. I, uh, I-I didn't know you still kept in touch with any of them.
Eddie: Truth is I didn't. I haven't talked to any of them since I moved out here. I pulled four people out of that chopper alive. Chief died in country a couple years later. Rest of us made it home safe.
Buck: And, uh, wh-what happened to the others?
Eddie: Norwahl... died in a car crash. Binder OD'd, and Mills... shot herself last August. I pulled them out. But I didn't save them.
Buck: So, that's why you took a baseball bat to everything you own?
Eddie: I'm afraid.
Buck: Okay. Okay. Well, what are you afraid of?
Eddie: That I'm never gonna feel normal again.
~ Edmundo "Eddie" Diaz and Evan "Buck" Buckley, 9-1-1 season 5 episode 13: Fear-O-Phobia
Eddie was really going through a lot during the fifth season but it had all built up over a long period of time. And sooner or later, he was going to have to deal with it. Earlier in the episode, Eddie's therapist Dr. Frank (so far no last name given) asked Eddie "So, what are you afraid of?". Eddie didn't answer the question, instead his response to Frank was a question, "That's a pretty open-ended question, don't you think?" However, later in the episode when Buck asked Eddie the same question, he truthfully answered him. I love that Eddie was able to let his guard down and be vulnerable with Buck.
This scene reminded me of what Buck said to Eddie back in the third season 9th episode Fallout. He said "If you're not gonna be honest with Frank, at least be honest with me." And so far, that's continuing to be true.
(9-1-1 season 5 episode 13: Fear-O-Phobia)
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